You take a decision and then you have to live with it, and just like the butterfly effect, everything you say, do and decide not only affects you but also those around you, in ways you could never imagine.
Why don't they teach in school how to love, how not to break people's hearts?
After a wrong decision, you are left alone with a few pieces of memory: someone holding your hand under the night's sky, a warm hug while falling asleep, eyes sparkling with love when least expected...what can hurt more than leaving all those behind?
“It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't come back. You're left so alone that you can't explain. Damn, there's nothing like that, is there? I've been there and you have too. You're nodding your head.” ― Henry Rollins, The Portable Henry Rollins